I don't even know why I'm journaling this.
but my life TOTALLY SUCKS RIGHT NOW!

I'm currently in the middle of the bad break up that just wont end! And it isn't even technically a break up, since there was no relationship to begin with.

I liked her.
She didn't like me.
We tried to be friends.
It blew up in our faces.

I mean not to justify my extreme bitchdom but I felt threatened so I lashed out. Is that so wrong? Well it is, but.... it's just... I don't have an excuse. I just felt like an injured animal backed into a corner with people throwing rocks at it! And I wish I could say I 'm sorry, but I can't even talk to her anymore.

If it wasn't for what i hear through the grape vine from my friends I'd think she'd dropped off the face of the earth.

I don't feel like going on with life anymore, and not so much because I'm miserable, but I'm bored. All my friends don't want to deal with me anymore. I mean I had one friend left and I just got into a fight with him.

Don't even know why I'm journaling this, I guess I need to vent.

Anyway leave a comment if you wouldn't mind. I seriously need some perspective.